Inspiration>>>> The Very Talented BEZ "MORE YOU"

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I want more u, to make me feel.....

'Cause at times i see but can’t touch you and it hits me that taunt is her name and illusion is her game,

But i want more you, more me, more us...

I want more.... more of what we wanted.

More of the beginning and the sweetness it brought with ...

Now we are carved images in our own home... our home my heart....

Resounding echoes of heart beats from long ago.

We stand, faces turned away from one another but we're honestly turned away from the truth....

WE are truth... we are or were THE truth,  we were made to shame them...

Them the scoffers.... their bait, impending doom and the destruction of our right...

We are together but this internal war has been waged for so long,
death seems an apt exit.

You’re here, I’m here... but our absence lurks in shadows of our past union.

The FORGOTTEN...

 And from death, more of you i still want...

to touch your solids.... and stare at your hearts surface,

Waiting an eternity, if i have to for the flesh to move,
signify life again...

I want more you.... yes you...

I want more you and none of them.... just you

Come touch me and end the soft but penetrating aches streaming through my chest...

Come love me in this blizzard, make me still in the eye of it all,
calm me from within...

Yes i want more you...fists of you... buckets of you, just more...

But sometimes...
the more of you i get the more my heart hardens.
i try to let the warmth in...

completely open but all i feel is cold... and the painful process of the my heart changing.

But yet i want more you....
can not tell u more of what exactly...

What drives me, 
i do not understand.... 
is it the hope i feel or the assurance of pain....

Or YOU...
I do not know, but i want more...

More of whatever it is you offer...
 forever and ever comes into play

Whatever you dish i will always want more given that it is always you ...

More.... i want....

I want more you....

POINTLESS... I KNOW IT

I openly voice out my fears here, i can understand that wanting something bad enough is never ever enough for you to get it... but when there's opposition then what really is the point? You are the eye and core of my affection...you are the princes and heroes i have dreamt of long before i could translate... i had you, then lost you, and thinking about it now, that should have been enough for me to realise that i never really had you.... you don't lose things you had unless by your own doing... but i did nothing wrong... i loved you religiously, i did it right down to the books, if such books exist. But then the saying comes into play, you have to fight to keep things that God didn't give you himself. And now i understand that the first time was enough for me, or should have been enough for me to understand. And to think it happened three times and it only hits home now...the light just came on.... and sometimes i think understanding softens the blow and helps you let go that bit easier.... i love, i really do love, but I'm trying to be smart enough to not love what isn't wholly mine. I have lost you to the same thing over and over... it indicates that there is a connection... not love but a connection....i can't place my finger on it...but its winning over me... it wins every time you sit, take my face in your hands, look into my eyes and say that you love me... yes, even then it wins, 'cause love is not enough, it has never been enough....I am beginning to question if it has any value at all...and if indeed it has no value then i might as well be worthless, 'cause lord knows that's all i have to give.... thats all i have ever given... and yet my connection remains a single string...and what good is that against chains? I wish i was allowed to love for two, because believe me, i have that much love for you....but its worthless and I'm sick of fighting a fruitless battle...one that stops but never ends...one that keeps you engaged for years, while your youth wastes away...only to assure you that you had been defeated from the minute your amour was completely put together.... and that you have never had what it takes to win.... POINTLESS.