If only....

I read it again and again and was really hoping for the last breath....you know the one I'm talking about.....it’s the breath a person or thing takes before it goes still, before it dies. I was really expecting that when I got the email. But it didn’t come and I was almost close to thinking that maybe I had made a mistake.....but how could I have when he easily gave up? He sent it to me because he knew that there was no chance of him finding himself again, there was no chance of things getting back to normal.....sometimes having the feeling of sadness when something comes to an end doesn't mean it’s a sign for you to go on, it just means that you are human. When someone finally throws in the towel on something that you strongly believed in, even if you've called it quits prior to this stage, it will always still hurt. And the sigh of relief your expecting might not come at that second but it will eventually come.....it only takes a while because your human and you have feelings......if only forgetting and moving was as instant and easy as falling in love sometimes…..